instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor.
“For the lamb on the throne will be their Shepherd. he will lead them to springs of life-giving water. And God will wipe every tear from their eyes…There will be no more death or mourning or or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away” (Rev 7:17,21:4).
I am following the Shepherd. I have spent many years in the valley and I have spent many years basking in the glorious light of the mountain. I know more valley’s are ahead of me…death is inevitable, as is my own. I cannot begin to express in words the joy and anticipation I feel for the day I will finally see the One who I have been listening to, trusting in and receiving from in the dark. This will be the day when all of my questions are answered and the day when I will be comforted one final glorious time. The day when my tears will once and for all be wiped away and when I will finally see the look in His eyes, the one He always gave me, the one that the veil of earth prevented me from seeing. They will be eyes which reveal grief, tenderness, compassion, comfort and love. But perhaps I am most eager to see His look of joy when I embrace my Anna for the first living time…and never ever will I have to let go.
I have been sitting here for a while staring at the screen, my hands hovering the keys, waiting. I feel it, but sometimes it takes a while for all that simmers inside to come scripting out. I hear this prayer rise…Make these, my words, a well oiled river, flowing the brokenness of me and the wholeness of you, up, out and over. The simmer becomes a boil. I process what the prayer means. It’s a pleading that the mess of me combined with the perfection of God will emerge, expand, and explode right past my heart and onto the page. The prayer gives birth to vocabulary…
I hope this brings a smile to my mother in laws face!!!!! Sharon has recently had surgery and will be off her feet for a good chunk of time. We hate that we can’t be there to cheer her up….So, maybe this will do for now!!! We hope to make a trip up this Fall! Here are some other photo attempts!
So, there you have it, the Kelty Boys. Sharon I hope we succeeded in bringing a little sunshine your way. We love you so much and wish we could hug you.
Well, buckle up, this is gonna be a long ride. I plan on writing stream of consciouness and I’m not looking back so who knows what will come out from these fast typing fingers. Today was just one of those days. Yes, mothers all around the world know what I mean when I say…It was just one of those days. My morning began at 2:30 am, and then 3:15 am and then 5 :30am and then the final buzzer went off at 6:50 am. Ben did the triple morning wake up. Wow, I wish I hadn’t taken a benedryl last night and that my precious husband wouldn’t have taken more than his fair share of the coffee this morning. For the past week John has miraculously slept until 8:30 am. As I sat down in the recliner with my 1/2 a cup of coffee and with Benny contentedly in the in exersaucer, i thought to myself, ” well at least I’ll have a few moments to let this caffeine override my exhaustion before our little spinning machine wakes up”…. “A,B,C,D…H,W…” Is what I hear at that very moment like a loud speaker from heaven blaring from John Kelty’s room. I take a deep breath, say a quick prayer and sacrificially change the channel from my beloved Today show to hopefully catch up on the Texas Polygamy case (my current obsession) to John’s beloved “The Wiggles.”
And so the day began…we were off to a good start. Chris quickly ran upstairs to get John before he left for school as I started to nurse Ben. I hear a sweet “Goodmorning Anna, have fun with Jesus” as John came down the stairs and saw Anna’s picture. I think to myself, “such precious things come out of that little mouth”. The next thing I hear is, “Mommy, John needs a snack and Benny eats (drum roll please……) boobie snacks, 2 of them.” Yes, you heard me right, boobie snacks. I have never heard that from John before and we certainly don’t refer to nursing in that way. So I silently rewind and add to my previous thought, “Precious and precocious things come out of that little mouth.”
The sweetness quickly turned into hysteria and 2 year old tantrum throwing when I suggested we take a special “brother’s picture” for Maw Maw for Mother’s Day. I even promised a bowl filled with chocolate chips, ( I swore I’d never bride when I became a mother). Rivers of tears and flailing erupted since he couldn’t have the chocolate chips before the picture was taken and since he actually had to sit next to Ben which meant Ben’s hunky, unsteady body kept toppling onto John. John was convinced that Benny was kirplunking him on purpose….and he tried to kirplunk him back…and so a series of timeouts prevailed.
This blog is entitled “April at Home,” because it truly has been just that. Actually, maybe the more appropriate title is “April in Bed.” Today is the first day in a month I haven’t felt like passing out. I’m crossing my fingers but I think mono has passed. I think I would still be in the bed had it not been for a few key players who helped me to get the rest I needed. Chris is my hero. He took a “leave of absence” from baseball to take care of me and the kids. He has been Mr. Mom for the past three weeks and I am so grateful for him. My mother came every day for a week to take care of the kids and to let me sleep. Mom and Kristen both helped me so I could keep my glorious cleaning job. My friend Jill organized a week of meals from my bible study which were out of this world. I feel so blessed to have the family and friends that I do. Thank you for all of your gifts of love and prayers for us during this exhausting month. And thank you to John and Ben for all the snuggling and naps they took with me.
Speaking of John and Ben…..here’s what they’re up to. John just finished his second semester of Musicgarten. He sings constantly. He particularly loves to sing “That’s Elmo’s world” over and over. He also loves to pray. Whenever we pray he says, “Now John’s turn…” He starts off pretty good, but often ends with his ABC’s. He loves to line things up and to cluster things together. He seriously does this all day long with whatever he sees.
( clustering animals)
Of course, cuddling is still a favorite, the kid has major skin hunger
Ben, smiles all the time.
He’s incredibly content. The newest development with Ben is that he has really taken notice of John. He watches him dance and jump around the room, and laughs hard at him, which John gets a kick out of.
Here are some more highlights:
John has discovered that he loves to cuddle with Ben, who he affectionately calls “cutie boy.
Ben has also discovered food this month. After 6 weeks of trying all the different foods in 3 day intervals, we have figured out that Ben loves food and that he has no food allergies unless you consider gagging on green beans an allergic reaction.
Ben has discovered his toes….If he’s lying down, he’s pretty much in this position.
We just put Ben in the exersaucer this week which he loves!
And like always…our boys love their cousins.
Another huge highlight for me this month was getting to meet the long awaited Clyde Robert Jones, the precious baby boy of my lifelong friend Kristin and her husband Tim. He is adorable and is a gift like none other. Though the time I got to spend with Krissy was short, it was cherished.
Well, that’s about it. Thanks for reading this month’s edition and for taking an interest. I hope this finds each of you well- The Kelty’s miss you all!!!
Much Love,
Kate